Weddings...

You know, marriage is such a big thing. it's not just a little symbolic ceremony and a party afterwards. it's the start of a process of the life of two people. it's huge! to really know and understand how you want to live your life, and who you want to do it with--it's amazing anyone actually gets married. what i mean is, i think i'm pretty easy going, and i can get along with people very well. but to know that i want to spend the rest of my life with someone, that's about what the meaning of our life together is going to be, what our priorities are, how we interact in challenging situations, and how deeply we think about and process things. it's really not enough to just love eachother.

i focused alot on planning a wedding over the last few months. we just broke up, the wedding has been called off. i hate that i'm really hurt and that we can't work things out properly, and i miss him so much. but i've decided, i'm not going to let this destroy me. i know it's really hard, but i have so many good things in my life right now. my family has been wonderful, especially my parents, and i'm just thankful that this all happened before the wedding, and not after we were already married. i'm in my first year in med school, which i've dreamed of for a really long time. so i should just enjoy. enjoy school, enjoy being closer to my family, get to know the new city i'm in... so that's what i'm going to do--i'm going to enjoy cooking, and exercising, and meeting new people, and learning new things. i'm starting a fresh start. 

anyway, it occurred to me that all the research i have done, and photos i have collected--they might be of interest to people who are thinking about their own wedding. so i thought i'd post some of the stuff up, since it's no longer of great use to me. not in the near future anyway. so i'll try to put up a little more everyday. come back to check it out. i hope you find it helpful.

i'll start with the fact that we wanted a very down to earth wedding, outdoors, in a natural setting. nothing too extravagant, but we wanted it to be nice--well done, and nicely put together.