Intimacy

Just some thoughts...

I came to the conclusion that sex gives you a false sense of closeness, of intimacy. The closeness is great, but after a bit--it just seems like i need something more. It doesn't feel right to think i'm so intimate with someone that i actually barely know. I mean, it feels like we know eachother really well, but most of the time we're just having sex. So, I decided that wasn't a good thing. And we called off sex for a little while.

It's been an amazing few days! We've still been spending every night together. It's just that we don't have sex. Or anything. I mean, we kiss a little, but not even as much as making out.

Then i realized another thing. And that is that it's not really about the lack of other things besides sex, but rather that i don't seem to get the same reaction out of him that i'm used to. i don't really get that I-can't-keep-my-hands-off-you feeling. Which is nice when we're trying to talk, but slightly disconcerting when we're being silly and fooling around. anyway, I have to get to bed, but i'll try to explain more later.

The point is, the lack of sex means more time to cuddle and be affectionate, which is helping re: the not feeling as attractive issue... I'll keep you posted.